Looking Back

Looking back now and having time to think,
There was nothing I loved more than having a drink.
Even at a young age I loved it so much,
In the end there was nothing I wouldn’t touch.

I started as a young teen to not long ago,
Now never to drink again and always say no.
I have my friends, my family, and my life back,
My life not a bed of roses, there’s still lots I lack.

All the fun of a teen, I never wanted those days to end,
Good times loads of laughter and fun was a godsend.
In the background always about and having a ball,
Pretending to be a friend was the alcohol.

My drinking was never normal from the start,
Taking everything from me nearly the last beat of my heart.
I thought it helped me; it was my friend you see,
Little did I know the bastard was trying to kill me.

Drink was I thought, my friend and always at work,
When things got tough and hard it would always lurk.
It always lied and told me things would be ok,
But nothing ever did change the following day.

Very slowly and surely alcohol my friend was ripping me apart,
Taking away my soul, my dignity, and my heart.
I was now in my last stages and about to go,
Alcohol had nearly killed me, taking it very slow

Lying in hospital and praying for one more chance,
Asking God to let me live and to please give time to let me advance.
All those years I thought alcohol was my friend,
But now I know it was the devil who did send.

At the start for me drink did it all it was great,
But I didn’t know all the way back then my real fate.
For all those years no problems I felt fine,
But drink owned me, my life and choices weren’t mine.

Since stopping my life has got better and good,
Alcohol no longer standing over me with gun and hood.
Once again I own my life and make my own choices,
No longer the alcohol is doing it with its million voices.

Life is not always easy full of fun and full of joy,
But now alcohol doesn’t rule it all deceitful and coy.
Now I can always do what I think is good and right,
As for now everyday I see a beautiful life in sight.

WHO YOU THINK IS YOUR FRIEND SOMETIMES IS YOUR WORST ENEMY!!!

DG
2/6/17

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These are my words from my recovery.Being a alcholic even know my memory isnt the best i remember somethings that will always be in my memory.i just pray that no one wud ever have to go threw the life of addiction .

2 thoughts on “Looking Back”

  1. dear friend I don’t know who are you………………..but I feel that you would be a good person ………….because I read your words ….your struggle with the alcohol…………you made the words of the poem alive with your fight with the wine………………………
    thanks…………….

    om
    ombhatia115@gmail.com

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    1. Thank you …my freind has done the blogg page for me as i havent really much idea bout computers๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ h8 the things.i write a lot so this sounded good idea …and its amazing watchin pepole in usa spain and even india reading it this just makes me so happy ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š thanks for ur comments….im still workin out how things work on a blogg but im learning ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š

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