The last few weeks, my hardest time for me, wondering what all this staying sober is about; I am so bored but then I thought of a few things.
For a long time, I’ve had battles that are so hard to keep at and beat. It was like getting hit by Mike Tyson in the first round, and I’ve been on my knees but kept getting up and up again and in the end beating him on points.
From learning a simple thing for most, which is walking and talking, learning all this over again, I was down and near out but I got up and beat it and have walked again, and talked again (too much nowadays).
The evils of drink which for decades knocked me down again and again and left me with cirrhosis of the liver, mental health problems, I still got up and up and continued fighting.
Through these times I have hurt the people that care and love me time and time again, but since I’ve stopped drinking relationships are getting better and happier.
So working things out, I have always had a hard battle to fight. And now that I have beat them, I am looking for another battle because I am bored. But I need a battle to fight that will not near kill me.
People always say they would love to have peace of mind, but now that I have it, it’s feking weird and I keep thinking something’s wrong, lol. So writing all this stuff helps me, and I hope others can relate to it and maybe it will help them.
So share on, cause we all know someone with a real drinking problem. People can take a drink and leave it, but there’s an unlucky few like myself that can’t.
I’ll leave it at that for this post. I feel like I beat Mike Tyson at times because I did get beat up bad at times, but I am alive and have beat everything that life has thrown at me and am now standing fresh and healed.
Thank you God because someone was helping me.
May 14, 2017